HIStory {His Story @ Work in Me}
PRE-JESUS
Growing up in a religious-focused home, I never felt like I really had a solid grasp on who God is and how to actively and practically live out my life to best serve Him.
As a child, the Eastern orthodox pictures of Jesus frightened me. The stained glass windows depicting unknown symbols and saints made me feel like God was angry and creepy. I was indoctrinated with the belief that the grace and forgiveness of God was to be earned by good works and discouraged that I wouldn’t ever obtain favor or forgiveness and would likely be skating down on the highway to hell. Personal Bible study was not a part of my cultural upbringing.
I struggled with the belief that God could really love me.
RELATIONSHIP > RELIGION
At age 16, a friend put a Bible in my hands for the first time and I became absolutely captivated by the intricacy of this ancient compilation of texts.
It was then that I stepped into a relationship with Jesus outside of religion.
THOUGH I KNEW OF JESUS, I DIDN’T REALLY KNOW HIM
To be quite honest, most of my adult life was less than exemplary. Most of my 20's were spent trying to convince people to love me, addicted to the perception of perfection, I had sex outside of marriage, drank my rent, treated people terribly and did some damage to the Kingdom of God by claiming to be a Christian yet living so apart from a Christlike life.
After getting myself tangled up in {yet another} dysfunctional relationship and experiencing the consequences of my disobedience like insecurity, anxiety, depression and pure despair trying to hold onto a holographic “love” story, I finally reached “The Ultimate Moment of Surrender.”
See, I accepted Jesus as my SAVIOR, but I hadn’t made Him my LORD.
MY RADICAL HOLY SPIRIT ENCOUNTER
On the night of 11.2.14, it was like God and I made a transaction. I surrendered my life to Jesus as LORD. In an instant, an unexplainable peace consumed me and replaced all confusion, pain and striving. It was an encounter that is hard to put into words. It was as if I were in a transcendent state having direct, unfiltered communion with God. Holy Spirit came over me and it felt like warm liquid love and peace radiated through my veins. Like a blood transfusion.
From that night forward, I made a commitment to purity, I found a desire to surround myself with strong faith-filled believers, I reevaluated my relationship with alcohol, and continue to be deeply convicted in areas of entertainment, conduct and calling.
For the next 7 years, I learned to walk in my new identity in Christ and fall deeply in love with Him. He became my Bridegroom King, my First Love, and my everything. The gift of prophecy immediately began to be released - mostly in the form of encouragement and exhortation to other women to fall so in love with Jesus that nothing else satisfies the longing of their hearts as He does.
With that, I also had a deep longing in my heart yet to be fulfilled: to find my handsome and holy husband and enjoy the gift of motherhood. Many days and nights in tears rolled into years of longing…waiting…praying…preparing. Age 30 came and went. Then 31, 32, 33, 34…”Where is He, Lord?!” Then, finally at age 35 just as I was about 7 years made new in Christ - He aligned my path with my husband in a miraculous way. Our love story is truly miraculous and hand-written by the Lord Himself. No doubt. I probably could write a whole book about the ways He revealed His hand in all of it - complete with dreams, visions, signs and wonders, prophetic words, and the blessing of our spiritual intercessors.
On November 13, 2021, I experienced a second re-birth. I became Mrs. Schissel in an intimate marriage ceremony with our immediate family.
Within just a few weeks, the Lord honored our obedience to premarital celibacy and gave us the honeymoon gift of life - our son, River. Nine months after he was born, we conceived our baby girl, Ava. She completes our blended family of 5 children, with 3 bonus boys AND a grandson!
Take it from me, the Lord CAN do miracles! His timing is perfect and He can make up for the years of tears in the waiting with abundant joy overflowing.
I’m just an ordinary, unschooled woman who’s sold out and surrendered for the cause of Christ
A NEW CREATION
Though I am a new creation, I’m still learning more about my “new self” every day as I allow Holy Spirit to lead, direct, convict, correct and comfort me. I don’t always get it right. I’m still human. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned that I can share is anywhere there is flesh, there are flaws…anywhere there are humans, there will be hurt… where there are people, there will be problems. But through all this, God is good and it’s His kindness that leads us to repentance. Jesus heals and restores!
Though I have no formal seminary degrees, since 2014, I’ve been on an accelerated journey of learning through the school of Holy Hard Knocks. I’ve had the honor of serving and leading in various ministry roles including 3.5 years serving at (what was) Hillsong Phoenix. I also served as the interim Youth Pastor and Communications Director for AZ Vineyard Church. I feel a strong calling to:
Coach Christians to a life surrendered to Christ
Championing The Commissioning and unique calling
Provide teaching tools and resources to deepen spiritual growth
Use my gifts to honor God in all that I do
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